freaked out

I'm still not over my jet lag got as a souvenir from Japan and what?
I decided 2 days ago to go skiing, not skiing skiing for fun but skiing skiing working. with kids.

I would like to congratulate here myself for taking thoughtless and spontaneous decision- well done!

I'm freaked out because it's snowing as hell I don't know if we will be able to fit into my car, I have never been working with a group of small kids that you get as a gift for the whole day.

uf uf uf im freaked out, but this is how we learn, right?

blue eyes

I didn't know that blue eyes can mean so much.

Yes it happened before that someone abroad told me how beautiful my eyes were but here it's mad...

Today some japanese students in metro tried very hard to talk to me in english and tell me that my eyes and eyelashes (no wonder- they all have the fals ones!) are so beautiful... and that im kawai!

Moreover spanish guys seems to adore them too- wow!

I'm confused it's only eyes!

Seriously? No English?!

I was once told by my aunt that if I do speak foreign languages and my friends do too, that does not mean that everybody knows them.

Well until that little chat I considered that everybody know some basics in let’s say English, than I heard that my Erasmus friends in Poland couldn’t communicate in Poland with neither old nor young people!

Than I went to Spain, to discover that even in European Uni 90% do not speak english at all.

And now I’m in Japan and what?

NOBODY on the streets speak english, today I was desperately looking for help from some businessman today (this is what somebody told my- go and talk to businessmans they all speak Englished) so I found a smoking zone full of those and they didn’t speak English AT ALL, they said: straight, left!

What a surprise! I think the biggest in Tokyo!

By the way I totally adore the city.
  

Maybe I should cry for help
Maybe I should kill myself

Maybe I'm a different breed
Maybe I'm not listening

babies having babies

I still can not come out of the state of a shock that I got yesterday.

I was gone from my uni for a semester and during that time one of the classmates got married, pregnant and now is having a cute little baby.

Maybe this is not a surprise however being only 21 not having a job and having a boyfriend, I mean studying too sounds like WOW to me.

being jealous

The title might suggest talking about relationships, but no.

I feel that I’m more jealous of my little brother than I am of my dearest boyfriend...

Of course I get pissed when he talks to other girls but it’s not this kind of jealousy that I mean.

So howcome I’m jealous of my brother?

I feel that he is better treated by my parents, anything he wants- he gets, not that I don’t however it requiers more effrots from my side.

Going, asking, negotiating etc.

When I was his age I couldn’t do whatever I wanted I had to ask for permission, I couldn’t choose which car I will drive, how much money I would get for a trip etc.

It’s just that is it so much easier to him (but this is what is cool right? Life should be easy! OMG)

I feel that it is so stupid, but I just can’t handle it (it’s the same thing with my father changing me car every three months- I do not want to get angry but I do.)

I believe that in order to change the first thing is the recognition of the thing we want to change- so we are done with the first step- I do not want to be jealous of such a stupid thing!

Now I JUST have to change it.

Thanks for listening to me my diary- it feels so much better!

I will change this, I will change this, I will change this, I will change this!

Holy cows

It's been probably years now since I started to wonder why Spanish behave like holy cows- what Is it? It's a behavior when you do not move when somebody want to pass, you never give way to anybody, you give this look a bitch/ dick and show that you seriously do not care about anything but your comfort...
Oh and you scream instead of talking.
Well with all the respect to my Spanish friends, this is soooo common And I seriuosly can't understand it!

Any ideas?

Sail!

Eventough I have one of the final exams today we were obliged to participate in a conference about human resources, ok- no choice, I go- prepared with two folders of notes (for my exam) i sat down ready to fight agianst another waisting time conference.

And here I am 5 hours of it... I must admit that I was wrong- I didn't study for my exam, the conference ws great, some directors telling us their experiences etc.

Least and the best was a man called, well i dont recall how but he named himself as concilliator (he has a good blog by the way!) his speech was so good, shortly speaking about seven dimensions of our lifes that we should try to have (partner, family, work, friends, hobby, woluntary).

There was also a nice lady speaking- i really liked what she said: whatever you are afraid of go out there and do it- this is how we develop, and forget about your comfort.

Well it again is one of those days that I learn a lot without studying.