the sweet day

I Spoke to my hun, P yesterday and I really start feeling that I miss him- finally this WE will have some time to spend together!

He didn’t call me during the day yesterday, of course I know that he was busy writing his spanish essay. Eventhough I know it I was kinda angry.

So I think this is why he called me back some time later saying:

-eerr… yhhh…. Listen I checked the message on the Photo you gave me and turns out that our anniversary is tomorrow.

Well what can I say, I’m prepared for no flowers, no romantic present- this is how he is.

But it  a sweet day anyway when I think it’s been already 2 years since qe met and fell in love.

OMG it sounds sooooo over sweeeet.

wrinkles

I feel like a student again!
I went out twice this weekend, got a little drunk, chatted with many nice people...

it feels good to have time to spend a weekend without driving hundreds of miles...

I was kinda pissed for two days when my hun told my he couldnt make it this weekend- I felt it was all unfair etc however I later came to conclusion that if is the one (supposingly) we will hav thousands of WE together and will be happy to get one without each other.
so here I am having a girly WE.

p.s.
I bought my tickets for a language course in Playa del Carmen! whooopi!

p.s.2
I actually started to use a anti-wrinkle cream OMG! ageing seriously scares me and obviously not in terms of wrinkles.

I would prefer him to ba gay rather than a priest

Belgium, a little country with kindest people I know and on the other hand full of crazy guys who shoot or kidnap kids.
I am so happy to be back after a year, the hapinness in these people just make me realise how important is it to be happy and thankful for each little thing that we get.
I always find some piece while I am here- it's not that I don't like my busy life but here you just slow down and celebrate each action- I love it too.

my crazy second mum and her family- they are so lovely people, I have so much fun with them, no matter if I come for a day or a month.

yes I am so happy.
but the weater sucks. so much.

sorry hun!

I realised today how busy my father is...

Me: dad can I come over to your office to discuss the progress of my bachelor work?

Dad: sure hun! Uh, why you wanna come to my office? Can’t we do it at home?

Me: dad for the last few days I have seen you for 15 minutes at home, so I think work is a better place...

Dad: u may be right... when you wanna come?

Me: tomorrow?

Dad: sure no problem, when?

Me: dunno, when you can?

Dad: uh... I don’t know I’ll call you during the day.

Call during the day:

Dad: sorry hun, I have an unexpected meeting at 2, I know I said 2 was for you but u know..

Me: don’t worry dad, just call me when you re done!

Dad: really sorry.

Poor daddy...

Setting goals

I always think that maybe I should do more than I do, I should spend more time with my family, I should take Spanish course I should accept a job etc etc.

I did some thinking about it today and I think I know where it comes from.

My attitude of setting myself goal of 150% in order to complete 90% comes from the fact that I am scared.

Somewhere deep inside I don’t believe in myself.

It’s hard to admit because I consider myself confident however I want to do everything because I am scared that in some years I won’t be able to do all those things I could do now.

Funny.

Scary.

sometimes you need to slow down

There is a time when you have to slow down for a little while...

For past few weeks, since I came back to live in Poland, I was moving moving moving, I went twice to Austria and did countless kilometers in Poland...

The forces left me somewhere on the way and were replaced by illnesses, first second third- and I gave up.

When the third week of struggle begun, I got another antibiotic, I made and decision to go and actually spend at least three days in bed. Seriously.

So here I am at the first day of my plan- we will see if I manage.

xoxo

freaked out

I'm still not over my jet lag got as a souvenir from Japan and what?
I decided 2 days ago to go skiing, not skiing skiing for fun but skiing skiing working. with kids.

I would like to congratulate here myself for taking thoughtless and spontaneous decision- well done!

I'm freaked out because it's snowing as hell I don't know if we will be able to fit into my car, I have never been working with a group of small kids that you get as a gift for the whole day.

uf uf uf im freaked out, but this is how we learn, right?