Olympic Games 2012

42 million dollars-  the cost of the opening ceremony.

I must say I am impressed and disgusted at the same time.

Enormous politically correct show (or propaganda if you wish)- such a waste of money.....

22.07

I don't know what there is wrong with this date but every year it just gets me depressed.

I remember only once being at home for my birthday and I agree it was nice but all those birthdays when I am surrounded by strangers I only got to know... it's such a weird feeling... seriously!

I should probably get some sleep and try not to think about it...

well I know for sure, I BDAY sucked!

I slept a long time (which was good) but then my boss made me cry.... sweeet!
 

aux Champs Elysées

It's really incredible to seat and watch people on this famous street.

Young and old couples, singles, homo and hetero families, beautiful and ugly people of all nations who have only one thing in common: trying to get the sensation of PARIS... they don't care whether what they see is true or not everybody just want to be part of it!

I sat on a bench for almost an hour and all I can say is that the lyrics of the song are very true: il ya tout ce que vous voulez aux Champs Elysées.

it's a love hate relationship

So here I am after almost half of my summer job expierience and the truth is I love it and I hate it.
I hate it because I work 18 hours a day, I don't have time to shower properly.
But on the other hand I get to meet all those beautiful people... Our team is amazing but the best are some kids, you now when you hear something nice from them it just feels great, especially that it's hard to hear something nice from a teenager...
I have my favourites of course, unfortunately they are going home this saturday- I am gonna miss them and one of them so daaamn good looking!

I think the older I get the more sensitive I am- thats bad!

anyways a round trip to poland- challenge accepted!

xoxo

Resolutions

Everybody is making new year's resolutions- I am not. This is why I decided to make some using as a motive my graduation (you know I have to defend my work in two days but writing blog is so much more interesting than studying...). Starting from October 2012 I will: -graduate from journalism -graduate and become a master -find a job in creative agency -go to gym 3 times a week -loose about 10 kg -quit smoking, drinking beer and eating chocolate -be nice to people -care for my friends (I will write, call, send presents even though they never do it for me) -I wont be so protective for my brother -I will be nicer for my lover -I will separate from Internet -I will be happy and thankful -I will stop to worry -I will be the happiest person on earth Ok but until then I can continue my life. How pathetic is this post? Omg

Uncle good advise

My parents thaught me a lot.
They always had time for me and gave me a lot of love, thanks to them I am where I am and I consider myself a person that thinks, in general.

However I went to visit my auntie yesterday and she really pissed me off and made me cry trying to convince me that my loved one is not for me and that I should find myslef someone better.

This is where I started to believe in brainwash.
I heard about people, mostly girls who are under such influence of parents or family that totally lose the possibility of thinking and making decisions.
Obviously, I didn't believe that.
But when I started to cry yesterday it wasn't because I wasn't sure of my ideas and of my love for P but because I felt kind of weak and I really can't explain it because there wasn't a single thing in her speech that I would do the way she sees it.

Mainly she proposed me to move back with my parents, study in my home town, leave P, find a rich and young guy, next get married and next move in with my husband and learn to live together.
oh and of course a huge pathetic wedding and church marriage is obligatory, she also told me that she was sure that my parents didn't accept P either...

"marriage gives "cement" to you relationship- you start to care for each other" as if living without marriage isn't worth anything because once people are married they start to work on the relationship.

???? SERIOUSLY????!!! 40 % of marriages in Poland split, home abuse is very common and seriously I should buy the crap about importance of the alliance called marriage??

well this visit was so strange mainly because my ideas are totally opposite but there was no discussion she was only critising my points.

I felt as if I was 12 stubborn kid who doesn't know anything.
I totally agree, that I did suffer in my life and I will do whatever I can not to suffer in my life but who knows where will I be in 20 years?
Probably I will be suffering, probably I will be worried a lot in my life but noone can save me from living my life.

Sooo thanks to that day I lost interest in marriage- it sounds pathetic

what a feeling

So here is the thing, I started to analyse it after I passed out the fourth or fifth time in my life- it is such a strange feeling.

Usually its easy to forget but this time I made efforts to keep it in my mind.

I felt as if I was in bed, and I felt so unbelivable comfortable that I didn’t want it to end any time soon. 

I felt that I was smiling and felt soo sooo good and then the feeling of waking up came…

And I started to hear the voices like: “come on! You hear me?! Wake up!” and saw all my class mated standing around me and checking me out.

Then I started to remember what happened I was dramatically pale and couldn’t stand up without getting dizzy for few good minutes…