Resolutions

Everybody is making new year's resolutions- I am not. This is why I decided to make some using as a motive my graduation (you know I have to defend my work in two days but writing blog is so much more interesting than studying...). Starting from October 2012 I will: -graduate from journalism -graduate and become a master -find a job in creative agency -go to gym 3 times a week -loose about 10 kg -quit smoking, drinking beer and eating chocolate -be nice to people -care for my friends (I will write, call, send presents even though they never do it for me) -I wont be so protective for my brother -I will be nicer for my lover -I will separate from Internet -I will be happy and thankful -I will stop to worry -I will be the happiest person on earth Ok but until then I can continue my life. How pathetic is this post? Omg

Uncle good advise

My parents thaught me a lot.
They always had time for me and gave me a lot of love, thanks to them I am where I am and I consider myself a person that thinks, in general.

However I went to visit my auntie yesterday and she really pissed me off and made me cry trying to convince me that my loved one is not for me and that I should find myslef someone better.

This is where I started to believe in brainwash.
I heard about people, mostly girls who are under such influence of parents or family that totally lose the possibility of thinking and making decisions.
Obviously, I didn't believe that.
But when I started to cry yesterday it wasn't because I wasn't sure of my ideas and of my love for P but because I felt kind of weak and I really can't explain it because there wasn't a single thing in her speech that I would do the way she sees it.

Mainly she proposed me to move back with my parents, study in my home town, leave P, find a rich and young guy, next get married and next move in with my husband and learn to live together.
oh and of course a huge pathetic wedding and church marriage is obligatory, she also told me that she was sure that my parents didn't accept P either...

"marriage gives "cement" to you relationship- you start to care for each other" as if living without marriage isn't worth anything because once people are married they start to work on the relationship.

???? SERIOUSLY????!!! 40 % of marriages in Poland split, home abuse is very common and seriously I should buy the crap about importance of the alliance called marriage??

well this visit was so strange mainly because my ideas are totally opposite but there was no discussion she was only critising my points.

I felt as if I was 12 stubborn kid who doesn't know anything.
I totally agree, that I did suffer in my life and I will do whatever I can not to suffer in my life but who knows where will I be in 20 years?
Probably I will be suffering, probably I will be worried a lot in my life but noone can save me from living my life.

Sooo thanks to that day I lost interest in marriage- it sounds pathetic

what a feeling

So here is the thing, I started to analyse it after I passed out the fourth or fifth time in my life- it is such a strange feeling.

Usually its easy to forget but this time I made efforts to keep it in my mind.

I felt as if I was in bed, and I felt so unbelivable comfortable that I didn’t want it to end any time soon. 

I felt that I was smiling and felt soo sooo good and then the feeling of waking up came…

And I started to hear the voices like: “come on! You hear me?! Wake up!” and saw all my class mated standing around me and checking me out.

Then I started to remember what happened I was dramatically pale and couldn’t stand up without getting dizzy for few good minutes…

dilemma

I must say that I am often having state of dilemma in my mind however yesterday when I heard from my doctor: miss, there are two Solutions: either you get another surgery or you get pregnant”

I must admit that it all went to a different level of dilemma…

I am almost six months now after histeroscopy and any other histeroscopy increases the risk of having troubles in getting pregnant however on the other hand nobody said that I would get pregnant now even if I decided that I wanted to go for it.

Well this is called : “good” news coming always in wrong times.

dear euro 2012 supporters in Poland,

I feel sorry for those of you who will have to you use any healthcare in Poland.

Yesterday I Could taste what is it like to go to ER and…. Wait 4 hours…

You know when you read it you feel like what is four hours? People around the World can’t reach any help in days!

OK but we are 2 weeks away from Euro and I sincerely hope that none of houndreds of thousands tourists who come won’t need ANY med help.

It was like a nightmare, I was almost passing out of pain, people where pushing into the line and apparentely this ER was empty because in the other one, closer to my home, there were 50 people waiting.

Advise: young medical rescuers are nice and helpful, old nurses are grumpy, the only doctor who was there did will to help at all- she was making coffee.

dear Mark Zuckerberg,

I should probably say thank you for Facebook but I won't.
with you social platform going to stock market you talked a lot about it recently.
You said that it's goal is to connect people who where seperated, who live in other parts of world.
truth is that if we want to stay in touch we write an e-mail- we don't need Facebook.
it exists only because of our need to spy on people to know their lives, gossips but it does not help us to keep relations.
it is only a virtual world that I do not want to be part of.

I am a Facebook addict and I am going to a rehab.

having sex with full make up on

is kinda challlenge but if you can't hold on anymore and just have to do it just before leaving you should follow those rules:
1. take off only the clothes you need to take off
2. be on the top
3. try not to rub too much your face with the body of lover (hard to do, I know!)
4. primp the make and your ready to go!